sometimes i feel like my head is on fire and the ashes of thoughts blow away sometimes my mouth feels like it doesn't exist and there are no words i know how to say sometimes my heart stops beating and i think i feel my blood run dry and often my eyes squeeze shut and i hold back the urge to cry sometimes i hear you complaining but i block out all the sounds sometimes i try to help you but i realize when i step out of bounds sometimes i'm tempted to hit you and make you suffer too and often i hear "i love you" and i wonder if you really do sometimes the sadness overwealms me and i take out my misery on you sometimes you doubt if you love me but in the end i hope you really do never have i doubted how much your love means to me and never do i want to but all the times i feel my self happy i know it's because i am with you Lioness Aidge *dedicated to matt